*Picks sticky note. Rolls eyes*
…and they have remained rolled for a while now because I cannot write on something I have not experienced.
What is failure?
I will not sit behind this laptop and tell you what failure. It’s a constant companion in your life even when you’re ‘winning in life’ because if you were perfect, you’d be Jesus reincarnated, and we all know where we stand on that. Which reminds me, when I was a volunteer teacher that many years ago, one of the kids in Class Four used to constantly read the bible. He was horrible at his studies but the confidence in which he said ‘I want to be taken up to heaven like Enoch without dying’ helped me refrain from giving his class exercise book to be ‘eaten’ by the school dog… Not sure why I told you that, but let’s ride on!
Failure for me isn’t so bad these days.
Failure for me is not such a traumatic experience where I want to crawl into a hole and wait for the afterlife to be one in being with me. It’s still painful, like the time I thought applying a drop of bleach on the white part of a stained black and white stripped skirt was smart, only of it to sip into the black part, but the thoughts don’t haunt me for very long these days.
I feel like I’m lying on that last one. That skirt story happened more than a week ago hahahaha!
My point is, I move in the pain of failure, not get paralyzed. The thoughts come up, but I’m kind to myself. “Well, you know never to do that again for as long as you live, yes?” and “Yes, leaving your laptop near a toddler was a silly idea, you know now never to do that again, yes?” and also “You put your foot in your mouth in that relationship/meeting? The taste will wear off and you’ll learn to calibrate your taste, yes.”
I do this because no matter what degree of a moron I was in a given situation, I am DETERMINED to take everything as a lesson. As Maya Angelou told Oprah, ‘When you know better, you do better.’
The point is to do better, not just know it after you’ve failed at something. That way you can live in your skin comfortably knowing in your gut that you are better, even by a fraction, than you were the previous day.
Have a better failure-filled day, won’t you?