I really have not been in the mood to write.
Granted, there are a lot of things in my life that I do not currently feel like doing. They include, exercising, eating right (those Tuskys tea scones…hmm!), watch news or read the newspapers… the works. I have been making excuses for so long that I am at the point of out rightly objecting any thought that suggests engaging, or lack of, in any of the mentioned activities.
But that changes today.
So the voices in my head let out a loud ‘HA!’
I want to be fit but now work out. I want to be a good great writer but I will not read or write. I basically want to get all the things I desire without working for them. Join me fellow reader in casting out this lazy spirit in Jesus name!
And all the readers said… Amen!
Tomorrow morning I will be waking up at 6:30 to skip. I was listening to Joel Osteen this Sunday morning and he said something sensible. Listen to gospel teachings when working out. That way you are fed the word of God as you sweat and curse the junk you ate the day before. This was a fantastic idea until I realized for the week I will not have internet.
Kindly leave suggestions at the comments section.
Now to the point of this post…
I have been talking to a man friend and he said he wants to be an amazing husband and an equally fantastic father… dear reader, get your mind away from that train of thought. It is not what you think. Moving on… his words made me realize that he had actually put thought into his future and who he wanted to be in Christ. Apart from a list of things I desire in my dream man (yes, all ladies have that), I have not put much thought into my life after ‘I do’. There was a point I prayed and worked at being a good girlfriend, then a good wife- okay that last one was is not entirely true. Now guess what the next step is. Yes, working to be a good mother.
Did I mention that I am not yet 23?
I have this new amazing bible that my parents got me for my graduation present, True Identity- the Bible for Women (NIV), and it has in my week of use being challenging me immensely. There is one thing I would like to share with you.
 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewellery and fine clothes.  Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.  For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful.
I Peter 3:3-5
To my Christian ladies, I am not telling you to not take care of yourselves, doll yourself up and all, by all means do. Looking good should not be an exemption just because you are made in the image of God. But if you stumble upon the following questions, check your definition of beauty.
- Are you trying to earn someone else’s acceptance, perhaps your own?
- Is your identity wrapped up in how you look?
- Are you trying to get more attention from men?
- Are you investing on the physical or into God’s kingdom?
Like some ladies, I stopped trying to dress up to impress men because I thought that I was not physically attractive. Don’t feel sorry for me, I now know that I am beautiful! However, answering some of the questions was hard. That last question make me realized that I indeed have things to work on. I have 40+ pairs of earrings. In reality I could bless someone with some of them, use the money to help someone out… the like.
My priorities need to change. As I am, my spirit is far from gentle, far from quiet. My target at the moment should be working, aided by the Holy Spirit (we all know we can’t change on our own accord), to transform the inner me. Getting into shape currently ranks second.
That last line just made me want to not exercise in the name of inner beauty. Oh humans…