So I like my things a certain way and this is a problem for many people because if you do not do what I want, I will, you know, not like it. Will I always show it? No, well, maybe. But let’s bookmark this train of thought.
I have always said to people during small talk I have no idea what I am doing in Public Relations (PR) as I do not like humans. Let this alien expound; people drain me. Not in a bad way, but when I spend a few to many hours with others in one space, I end up feeling suffocated. I will get grouchy if I can’t get away and shut down all together so I simply slip away long enough to fill me up with… energy, then join your fellow humans.
This Filipino has looked at me for typing (no one else is) and my train of thought has vanished. Argh!
Why I am in PR.
I have a ‘bitch resting face’, and yes, that is the official term for people like us who look pissed off with life even when we are not. That is our default look. And the- OMG. Life lesson right here. I’ll explain it later. SO! I have been in this workshop for two weeks now and I am a strong believer of ‘do it yourself’. You know those people who just send you on errands not because they need help but because they have seen a slave? I HATE THAT THING! OH MY GOODNESS! SOMEONE GRAB THIS KNIFE FROM ME! 😀
However, I have learned to smile through it all and not catch feelings, because once those a caught, they have a party on my face. And so I have smiled, and called people ‘my dear’ and smiled some more, and said thank you, and said, ‘don’t worry, I will take care of it’ and the works. At first it was fake because I always feel more inclined to tell people, ‘Well, if you had done your job…’ and ‘I will do it myself next time’, but with time I grew to actually mean what I say.
Now you need this stuff in PR because people are otherwise not going to like you or do anything for you. And you also don’t want to be a bother. I could go on, but point is, these two weeks were to expand my ‘taking crap’ threshold because honestly, people have been taking mine (but of course on a smaller scale because I am awesome, and it is never my fault :D). It only makes sense, give and take.
So yea… PR is beginning to make sense. But I still can’t stand people for more than a few hours. I need space and me time, and lots of it.
Oh, one more thing- when you fake the smile and the remarks above it shows because it reflects in your eyes, so it’s not really a behavior change but rather an attitude change.
I am exhausted but glad I learnt something!