Come, let’s explore the different strains of ‘madness’ within me… and find your relative 😛
We are all suppressing a certain degree of crazy within us. Who doesn’t want to go through their partner’s phone to see who they are texting, even for a fraction of a second? That in itself is flirting with psychosis- props for suppressing it, but psychosis all the same.
SO! I am a super emotional person.
This just might be the first time I have said that to myself out loud…
I had not admitted, to myself and others, that I am a very emotional human being. Because of that, I have possessed a screw face, retort to personal attacks like it paid, run away from emotional people… you know, typical macho stuff. BUT THEN, I get pissed off when people close to me don’t say I love you back. Camillus and Stevo that stuff hurts mein!!! My brathas! Why you no love me?
See, classic psychosis, let’s use broken English to detach myself from my emotions. SMH
This next one- I CANNOT!!!
This has happened to me plenty, and I’ve heard a lot of other women complain, seen it in movies…these words piss me off so much, I ask God to remind me what my purpose is, apart from a potential murder charge and jail sentence.
Me: I feel that… *goes off into an explanation, without even attacking, that a certain thing they do is inconsiderate and could do with changing. You aren’t ask him to migrate to Chelsea after the Man U thrashing, nooo, you are asking him to be a decent human being and respond to or acknowledge your texts verbally- not even all texts, noo, just the ones that yenyewe when you ignore it is just rude.*
Him: Relax/ you are over reacting
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN??!!
You foolish man. Are you in my shoes? Would you like me to request God to redo the past millenniums of humanity so that you can be reborn in my place, tell him to fast forward to what I am feeling in that moment, then ask Him to shelf that into the spiritual realm for you to access once He redoes the planet again and you are back to your place? Nonsense!
I shouldn’t have to quote, ‘You cannot be mad at a fig tree for producing figs’ when I am livid.
Side note: You can swap ‘fig tree’ with ‘shitty people’.
Human decency! When did a reaction to lack of it become ‘being so emotional’?
And that’s the thing! We women cannot say anything without being termed ‘emotional’ in a nasty sense of the word (there wasn’t even one, people just made it so like they did ‘hitting like a girl’), so we go about life eating lemons because we have so much pain, bitterness, hurt stored up that we can’t talk about- only for it to explode and we hear, ‘bitch be crazy!’ and that’s offensive to the real crazy bitches out there. That stuff is a calling, don’t belittle them! :p i kid
For real though: you can also tell me you don’t want to talk- that is very acceptable, I have such days. Or that I am not a priority, so that I adjust myself accordingly to your life- honestly is GOOD! And this is not a case of, ‘Chicks don’t like being told the truth!’- Where is your moral compass pointing? Do you even own one? I mean, you can even say you have the memory of a warthog. We will accept and move on.
Relax is not an answer. That is condescending and belittling. At least that’s how I see it.
MALES: Comments section, tell us the logic behind these words, please. Thanks 🙂
Prayer: God, I’d like to know that you are enough. Spirit, walk me into the place where my source of love and joy is You, that I do not place this burden on any human as they are incapable of fulfilling this, just as I am. Help me Lord, so that I do not write such blog posts. So that I can learn to let all negative words and actions go, offer grace for the same, and most of all, love unconditionally.